Hi Neli, and welcome!
In the AYP approach, we cultivate inner silence (shiva) and ecstatic conductivity (kundalini/shakti) with a range of practices (see the
main lessons). The merging of these two qualities within us occurs naturally, so we don't have to force the marriage. It does not have to be a certain way every day. We just do our practices and go out into normal daily activity, which stabilizes what we have cultivated in practices. It is a process of development with many ups and downs corresponding to our transformation. As inner silence and ecstatic conductivity are cultivated, the inner marriage will happen, and become a full time experience over time. The end result is abiding inner silence, ecstatic bliss and outpouring divine love leading to unity, which is duality becoming non-duality, even while remaining dual. Or, put more simply, ongoing
stillness in action ... we are
That.
So we are cultivating the underlying conditions of union every day in our practices, and not too worried about the joining, or which chakra is doing what. It happens naturally by degrees. Like the changes you have experienced over the past ten years, the changes will continue over the next ten years, and so on. Nothing to do but keep going with effective practices, as I am sure you will.
Your symptoms of ecstasy are natural and beautiful, and appear to be stable, so that is good. As you may know, ecstasy results from a flow of inner energy, and is actually a symptom of the process of purification and opening occurring within us. Bliss is an inherent quality of inner silence and does not change, while ecstasy will refine over time as purification and opening advance. Eventually ecstasy and bliss become intimately intertwined, and that is the joining everywhere within and around us -- the emergence of stillness in action. It is also sometimes called
divine radiance.
Speaking of radiance, the physical symptoms you are experiencing in and around you are also a reflection of ongoing purification and opening, and the ever-increasing outward radiation of divine energy. We all go through the process a little differently, and whatever happens is normal for us. If visible siddhis are occurring, this is a confirmation, but obviously not our destination. If the symptoms become too much, then the practice routine can be shortened a bit to pace the process, something you may not be inclined to do, given your strong devotion to your practice. Strong devotion is good, as long as it does not lead us into excesses we can't handle. Then we can end up going slower while recovering from overdoing. It is up to each practitioner to determine what is the best application of practices, while balancing progress with comfort and safety. In AYP, we call this
self-pacing. It is as important for advanced practitioners as it is for beginners.
Regarding the levitation and things moving around in the room while you are meditating, if you don't wish to self-pace your practice, then consider taking physical measures to prevent distractions or accidents. In time it will all smooth out and you will have much more conscious control, and can prevent external phenomena from occurring at will. The same goes for causing energy surges in others. In time, we learn how to manage such things, just the way a child learns to walk without falling or knocking the furniture over. Until then, it is good to take measures to minimize the disruptions in our environment, and in others. For a few tips from the AYP perspective, see
lesson 155.
Others have come here with similar symptoms over the past few years, and it is not so unusual. What is more notable and important is your strong devotion to your practice and your ability to regard all the hub-bub as a sideshow, which is all it is. So it bodes well for you, and for all the rest of us. Your enlightenment is our enlightenment, and vice versa. We're all in it together.
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Speaking of that, another way to reduce random energy surges, bouncing off the walls and ceiling, etc., is to put the divine energy to good use during daily activity. Get out and ground it. Exercise is good. See
lesson 69 for more pointers. Another good way to reduce wayward energies is to help others, not necessarily in miraculous ways, but through simple helping and service in whatever ways we may be inclined. There are opportunities for that all around us. This will lead to a more balanced flow that is beneficial for everyone, and enhance our own development in a balanced way also. See
lesson 120.
As the Buddhists say: "Before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood and carry water."
Thanks much for sharing. Feel free to chime in anytime. Wishing you all the best on your path. Enjoy!
The guru is in you.