Jim wrote:
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There is energy there. You interpret it as ecstacy. At a certain point, I guess you sort of numb out your ecstacy receptors, and experience the crude energy at face value. From that point, as you open more and ecstacy relaunches, it becomes easy to choose to not be "ecstacized" by it. I can't teach you how, because I was involuntarily shown this when I myself went numb ( (in that thread I linked you to, "Bliss Goes Dead"). But I can assure you it's the truth that ecstacy is all in the interpretation, so you can maybe watch for it. It really makes things easier...if you don't start getting neurotic worrying that it'll never come back
Yes. I interpret it as ecstacy. But - I am very aware of the fact that it is just "a layer" as you call it. The vapor (glow) - on the other hand is not.
I perceive anything that is limited to my body to be a layer. The ecstacy is in my body; the vapor reaches far beyond it.
The vapor is real, the ecstacy "is not". I know exactly what you mean, Jim. However - when the ecstacy is very strong; I sort of "lose" this knowing. Not because I am in love with it and want to indulge.....come to think of it, it is more like
it is in love with me. At times, I am simply not strong enough yet, to not pay attention to it. If "I try" not to pay attention - it gets worse. That's like "trying to not get drunk" after too much alcohol. (FYI: i don't drink at all - not even a sip of wine. I simply can't - it is pure poison. It has been like this for about a year.)
So - I am relying on time and wise self pacing to get me through this. It is great to have so much help at hand! Yoganis teachings are such a treasure! And this forum is pretty unique.
Again - what you say about the ecstacy being "a layer"; I can resonate with this. For some time now; when I look at myself in the mirror two things happen:
1. The one in the mirror is not me. I can't say that I am looking at a stranger - because I know my body. It is more like looking at a pair of my shoes. Knowing their mine; but also knowing they are not me. Definitely not. The feeling threw me off in the beginning - it is like being without identity. But - when I gradually perceived it more clearly - it engenders an enormous feeling of freedom.
2. When I look at myself like this, I am boarderless. I am simply everywhere in the room. It is like looking at myself from both outside and inside. The separation becomes meaningless then, doesn't it?
So. The ecstacy "binds me" to the body. The vapor frees me of it. There is a huge difference.
Jim.
I refrain from hugging trees now. I simply look at them
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Katrina, one more note: you've been meditating for 20 years, and so have many of us. AYP meditation is unquestionably stronger stuff. And thus you must carefully adjust your dosage!
Yes, Jim. Point taken.
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If you do cease pranayama and are worried about crown, bear in mind that a real careful sambhavi is key to keeping the route going the way we'd like it to. The ajna is the control, and so long as you maintain an innate sense of this, your energy will continue to favor that pathway.
Now this is great, Jim. This really helps me. I never intentionally "did" sambhavi. I just found out that I had been doing it spontaniously for a long time (long before meeting AYP). And you are so right: "A real careful sambhavi" is just it. It is almost not a physical thing. With me it just happens the instant my attention is there. Often, it then just stays that way without having to "check in". I will remember this.
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The fundamental practice is also to not get distracted by our internal thoughts and feelings. Consider: the ecstacy is just more of that stuff. So it can't interfere with your silence. Nothing can interfere with your silence, because the silence is the source of it all (including bowling and screaming at your neighbors).
This just about sums it up, doesn't it?
My experience last night (the one I told to Andrew) clearly validates this. Fundamentally - the ecstacy can't interfere with the silence. I love it, Jim
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