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Originally posted by michellegrace
How do you know when to cut back on practice? I don't want to, but I wonder where the line is. I have been struggling with a lot of inner demons lately. I suspect that purification makes me see them more clearly than ever before, which can be disturbing. Thus, I regularly find myself in the midst of a very heavy and dense depression (or anxiety) that I can't seem to shake away for too long. It often pops up not too long after my meditation, which worries me, but meditation also helps to clear it away. For reference, this phase started about seven or eight months ago, just a few months after I started regularly mantra-meditating for 20 min, twice daily. I have had my ups and downs and am much better than when this phase started, but I'm still kind of emotionally unstable. When it started, my teacher thought it was the result of over-purification. I'm not sure what to think...any input?
Hi Michelle
The advice you have gotten is excellent and I would like to add my spin on it.
Depression is caused by thoughts ruminating or going round and round in repeating circles in the the head. Associated with these thoughts are feelings and maybe body sensations.
When we get into a depressive cycle it can feel like we are being drawn, spiriling downward deeper and deeper and it can be very difficult to get out of.
When actually in the depression there are things we can do like Shanti suggests, distracting ourselves with anything, be nice to yourself.
Be aware that an automatic responce to depression is to first give up the things that nurture us. So we can make a conscious decision to go and do things that nurture us, like visiting a friend, going to the cinema or whatever does it for you.
The Dynamic Meditation that Shawa suggests looks interesting and I'd say that could be very useful for shaking a person out of the cycle.
There is very useful work that can be done in between depression episodes. This involves training in being aware of our thoughts and how they work.
We are highly trained as problem solvers and the big problem with this and depression is that problem solving with the use of "thinking", whilst being brilliant for solving most of our problems in general, is the very thing that brings us into depression and then keeps us there.
So we have to train ourselves to recognise the negitive thinking cycles as they start and stop them consciously. By arresting the development of the "normal" automatic response of thinking thinking thinking - distract yourself by paying attention to things in the moment, by doing something nurturing etc.
It has been proven that neural pathways in our brain get entrained into negitive thinking cycles, and this can be re-activated very easily through negitive thinking and down we go again.
So it takes some time of actually training the neural pathways to a different way of working so that the automatice spiraling does not happen so easily.
Meditation can bring us inward as Shanti says and can leave us in a place where we are more prone to fall into depression through automatic thought responses. So it is very important to start training in recognition of the thinking processes, in particular the negitive thinking cycles.
Before they get a grip on you, arrest them as stated above and do nice outward things for yourself.
Best of luck[
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