Hello hello,
I am training to be a mental health nurse. I will soon be qualified. Originally my plan was simply to train as a mental health nurse and work, no more education. Throughout my training I have become disillusioned with the role. Though it depends on where one works, there is a lot of bureaucracy and reliance on medication, not a massive amount of therapeutic interaction. Additionally I have recently been developing a stronger and stronger pull towards quantifying the truth and beneficial effects of truth, Yoga etc etc, in order to spread to the world, in particular in relation to benefitting those with mental and physical health issues. I basically mean to get what saints, sages, seers, yogis, swamis have been saying for millennia and put it into practice to help people who would otherwise not be aware of it and concurrently to record the efficacy of truth in helping people, thereby enlightening people as-well as curing them/facilitating their recovery and concurrently showing figures displaying efficacy to those who need numbers to trust something rather than intuition or other axiomatic factors (I am aware of a growing number of people doing this, but I feel the more the merrier/better). Though I can utilize Yoga and meditation practice in my work due to the busy role of the mental health nurse (we help with housing, the mental health act, medication, leave, finance, care planning, security etc) I feel the most effective route to do this would be a doctorate in psychology.
However, I am experiencing a slight dichotomy between ideals to help others and to liberate this wave typing this right now. Study for me results in over identification with mind and I am wondering whether 4 more years of study would slow awakening when compared to simply working, coming home and being able to do my Sadhana (more and more) twice a day. A liberated soul can help liberate/spread truth much more effectively than a non-liberated soul. So this could be of more benefit??? (but then how do you benefit what is already perfect?
typing this is good self inquiry) Ridiculous I know, the future is not real, essentially the one is wondering whether the one can help the one but is concerned whether this helping of the one will slow down the one from helping the one. When one puts it like that, this all seems kind of ridiculous
, regardless, any advice or insights would be appreciated. Is this a valid aspiration? Everything is perfect and the one is waking up piece by piece but movement in the stillness moves the one towards more realization, if no one acted towards the spreading of truth, for example if Yogani didn't act and hadn't started AYP then would we progress? This is not my main query but can you see what I am getting at?
So in sum I am wondering whether I should go straight into work which the mind predicts/thinks would be more conducive to truth/Sadhana/awakening for this body/wave, or train further to help spread truth to help others more effectively, though either way a liberated wave can spread truth and help other waves much better than a non-liberated wave, so perhaps going straight into work would help others more, that's if more education would be less conducive to awakening? Again, essentially the one is wondering whether the one can help the one but is concerned whether this helping of the one will slow down the one from helping the one
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Any advice or insights? I would be particularly interested in Yogani's response.
Love. x
Aum