So, here's the latest. It just keeps getting more and more "interesting."
Note, the title of this thread is "Making Peace with the Psychic Job" - which I did, and felt quite good about it. Unfortunately, as mentioned above, it didn't work out financially so I had to go back to the medical transcription job.
As it turns out, I've been getting more hours of medical work and with also going back to school for coding & billing certification, I finally had to accept the fact that I don't have the time/energy to keep up with the Psychic job and online counseling job as well. So, this week I resigned from my Psychic job, as much as I enjoyed it and love my clients. They were very understanding and told me that I am welcome to come back any time, if/when my schedule permits. Now I am down to only 2 jobs, the medical and the counseling (the latter has been slow, which is probably just as well, under the circumstances).
The medical job is quite demanding mentally and energetically, is physically painful and aggravates my illness. It can be very challenging but, as I stated above, this whole situation has been at the same time extremely liberating! I can feel the karma and attachment just burning off and it is a really great opportunity to "be present" and stay centered, conscious that I am not the doer and allowing the activity to flow through me. The other night I was in the middle of typing a long report and the doctor paused for a little while, saying, "um, er... [shuffles papers]..." and in that moment I just enjoyed absolute Silence, instant meditation, which happens whenever my mind is not actively doing anything else. you know that feeling? Like, Here we are.
Meanwhile, my young residential therapy client arrived on the 12th and she is great! Her mom was one of my best yoga students, before they moved to another city. She was raised agnostic (not atheist - so she has no prejudices either way) and she's been asking me stuff like, "I want to know about God. Like, is it possible to actually experience the presence of God??" Oh yes, my dear, you've come to the right place! She's a little bit into drugs, although not excessively, and I told her God is WAY better than drugs. She said, "Well, I can see the intense happiness you have, and I want that!" She is excited to learn yoga and meditation. I loaned her my
Illuminations from the Bhagavad Gita book with all the pretty pictures and she is eating it up. I also gave her a Sacred Heart of Jesus candle which she has set on her desk. oh, Fun!
We had a discussion about how she just wants to be "free." I told her I felt exactly the same way when I was her age - wanted to be an adult so I could get a job and be "independent" and not have to listen to my parents. Well, guess what: now at age 50 I can tell you, there is no "freedom" in this world. It only gets worse when you grow up and get a job. BUT, the good news is, although Freedom doesn't really exist out there, you absolutely CAN have it in here, in your own consciousness - and Yoga is the way!
We haven't done a whole lot of yoga yet because of my work schedule and also she's been sleeping a lot, resting and recuperating from trauma, plus I don't want to push her at all. But she's definitely interested. It's been a great blessing having her here and being able to share with her. I'm really thankful how everything is working out.