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Originally posted by lmaher22
I have never ever found the right job and the right balance at the same time. If I liked a job it usually paid crap and when I made a lot of dough I usually hated the job and so I spent most of the dough on booze and gambling. I'm 57 now and have always wondered if I could ever find the right job and the right money. I have heart disease so some jobs are out even if I thought I'd like it. I know it's probably me and all my 'blockages' and 'issues' but I've been blaming myself for years and got no where. Plus, isn't it true that spirituality is suppose to be about no desire or want for the material? Even if I'm broke and taking out the garage shouldn't I be joyous?
Brilliant. Sucks doesn't it? Been exactly the same for me. It causes illness in the body.
Where there is a right job, there is a wrong job. They are hewn from the same stuff. It then turns into 'I should be able to happy without a job' giving its polar opposite freedom of expression ' i won't be happy unless I have a job'.
Both are ridiculous, they are desire and desire causes suffering. One desire always creates its twin. Between the two is suffering.
Spiritual longing is exactly the same.
Instead of surfing along, instead one wave after another smashes into us. It's saying your doing something wrong. If you resist the wave it hurts even more and drowning doesn't appear to be a great option.
Instead be at one with the waves without fighting or drowning. Let them guide, watch them, let them become your master so that you may in turn become theirs. Share parity, know you and the wave are not different.
Your going to ask what all that wave crap has to do with real life and finding a job, all those practical things.
Well it isn't written anywhere that you should have a job, or that you should have a job you like, neither is it written it should be a good or bad paying job.
What unfolds, unfolds. The perfect job cannot come before you have learned to perfect yourself. Then all jobs are perfect, even not having a job is perfect. Once you realise that, you can end your search for the perfect job because you can see it as the true waste of time it is and the suffering it causes. You cannot surf the wave until you learn to surf. The perfect wave is of the mind and not external. If you can't surf then every wave is just a contest, a battle.
Spiritual development is learning how to surf, to get balance on any wave because all waves are from the source as is the surfer. It's not easy. Getting knocked about day in day out takes its toll, the flesh and the will get worn down, you get broken, busted and left gasping for air.
It is true you know. Something many people do not realise. Most people fall at the final hurdle. Within sight of the finish line they just give up. 99.99999 % completed and they chuck in the towel.
You have to go beyond the spiritual pain barrier, hang in there, grit your teeth and get back at it or die trying. It doesn't get easier. You get moments when you seem to be flying and then the crash is twice as painful. Those seeking happiness will never find it because it is not external, it has to come from within. Damned annoying to see that some already seem to have it. Surfing merrily away while you choke on seaweed and sand. Forget them all, it's just you, your task, focus, take the blows and focus again.
It will happen if you let it.
good surfing.