Hi all!
I have been interested in spiritual matters for almost 1½ year now, and am a big fan of the AYP booklet series.
Progress is slow due to that self discipline low, but the interest keeps growing stronger and I will hopefully kick of a stronger trend during a 10-day meditation retreat in about a month.
As everyone else, I am of course a very special snowflake and there is always some strange stuff going on.
I just wonder if you would put some labels on one thing for starters from your yogic perspective (chakra, prana, bhakti etc)
It goes something like this:
During a time of sexual abstinence, I thought some filthy thoughts and could feel the lower parts responding.
I continued, and mentally pretended to feel a real intercourse (I mean exactly my perception of the feeling in the penis).
It worked! The energy build-up in the penis and tension in the muscles in my body became stronger and stronger until I flexed the PC-muscle and that set of the orgasm.
It took pretty long time but it was worth it, almost better than live, and totally better that masturbation with a hand!
So, I thought, perhaps it is just a one time experience? I decided to try it one more time, and the same thing happened.
Then I realized it would work whenever I wanted, so I have done it a total of five times up to now.
It took time and hard concentration, everytime my mind got distracted, the level got lower.
The attention must be fixed on pretending to feel the stimulation, and at the same time visualizing something arousing to keep the flow.
I don't really know how to put it, but the orgasm felt "clean and undistracted".
Do you think this practise could be helpful in any way to the spritual path and in what way?
What is actually happening?
Does anyone else have similar experiences and wants share some information?
How can I practise to make it better and/or faster?
Thank you for reading, and I would love to hear your reflections on this topic!