Hello All,
My Tantric practices (100% solo, recently) continue to proceed in a way that seem exceptionally positive, to me.
The primary "major gain" in recent months, is that there seems to be a 1:1 correlation between (Tantric) sexual stimulation (<-- currently the only kind I do) and an immediate and significant increase in bodily ecstasy, primarily in the realm of my (upper, just to be clear ... ;-) ) head.
This includes feelings of exceptional pleasure / ecstasy, an increased sense of spaciousness, and (much of the time) an increase in *very* bright light (with my eyes closed).
This tells me that not only are things proceeding well spiritually, but also (difficult to separate the two, these days ;-) ) neuro-physiologically.
One of the more unique, and seemingly powerful effects of Tantric practice, is the secretion of a very distinct nectar. Usually it seems to be coming directly from my tongue (i.e. "ejaculating" from the front third or so of my tongue) - but at other times, is clearly dripping down from above the soft palate - and in kechari, it is "received" above the soft palate in (what seem to me to be) "copious" (i.e. "a lot!") quantities.
QUESTION #1
In my readings on Amrita / "Nectar", I have never heard of tongue secretions. Is anyone here A. Familiar with this, and/or B. Experiencing this also? Any thoughts? (It seems to be "all good" - just curious!)
My ejaculations have gotten fewer and farther between - and I haven't tracked them exactly - but general time-frame has been maybe once every sixty to ninety days. However, I do experience, in almost every practice session, pre-ejaculatory fluid -- which has always been the case for me, when sexually aroused - and which I chalk up to "bio-individuality".
Even though (per college biology classes, and my hopefully accurate memory ;-) ) this pre-ejaculatory fluid contains semen, I personally do not detect any sense of energy loss from allowing release / flow of a fair amount of this fluid (total amount is seemingly still much less than full ejaculation). It's also (probably) pertinent to note that this fluid is not necessarily connected with any energetic or physiological aspects of orgasm (i.e. no spasms, no writhing / moving in ecstasy, etc.)
QUESTION #2
Can anyone "confirm or deny" my preliminary conclusion that there probably isn't enough energetic loss (if any), to be concerned with, here? (Related to flow of pre-ejaculatory fluid.)Finally, every so often - after at least thirty days, and to date, less than ninety days (since I've never gone beyond that, in terms of time between ejaculatory orgasms) - I experience a phenomenon similar - but not necessarily identical to - the dreaded "blue balls" (the male body's way of reaffirming that it needs sex "at all times" ;-)
) - by causing the testicles to ache, become hot, often swell, and sometimes take on a bit of a blue hue -- hence the name.)
This condition (whether "blue balls", or what I am experiencing - which may be this condition, or a natural / individual variant) can be very uncomfortable - but usually passes within a time frame ranging from several hours, to a full day or more (but usually not much beyond that).
My symptoms are: testicles are swollen, achy, hot - and I feel almost a bit ill; a little weak, out of sorts, etc.
Normally, I would think, "Aha! - Infection" - except that ejaculation (usually once, sometimes twice within a few hours seems to be needed), and in rare cases an ibuprofen tablet or two -- seems to fix it (symptoms disappear entirely) -- and symptoms don't return for (usually) several months - and can be "fixed" just as quickly. I do recognize, though, that it's possible that I could have a long-term, low-grade infection which becomes symptomatic, every so often. My Doctor has virtually shrugged, and basically said, "Yeah, could be an infection - here's a scrip for some antibiotics; and be sure to ejaculate a couple of times a week - an active prostate is a happy prostate!" <--- direct quote; funny guy, my doctor .... (rolling eyes)).
I only took the antibiotics once, and couldn't tell if they helped, or not (symptoms go away within one to three days, whether I take them or not) -- and I respectfully disagree with him, that that much ejaculation is needed (per experience, and thousands of years of teachings on yogic health).
It's also pertinent to note that I comfortably experience the dynamic that Yogani has mentioned - that the energy indeed flows "both ways" - and that an ejaculation or two, every two to three months at the most frequent - does not, in any way (seemingly) "mess up my yoga".
QUESTION #3
Does all this seem optimal (related to ejaculation), given my physiology, energy experience and inclinations - or does anyone have any suggestions or thoughts?If needed / "indicated", I could endure the discomfort until it fades on its own (which sometimes takes two to three days, in my case) - if there is a major reason to do so --- meaning: I could either further extend my time between ejaculations, and/or presumably get to a point where I simply never ejaculate (I can have orgasms without ejaculation, no problem).
QUESTION #4
Is there any yogic benefit to either never ejaculating, or doing so as infrequently as possible (or, per what I believe I understand, per the lessons -- are relatively infrequent ejaculations such as I have described -- just about as good, or as good?)
Thanks very much - any and all input is most welcome!
Peace & Namaste,
Kirtanman