Hi all, just seeking some feedback/ tips on maintaining stability from anyone who feels qualified to comment as recently I have found this a little more challenging then normal.
I have previous meditation experience and had a fairly stable practice and a wholesome discipline in most areas of lifestyle including weekly and monthly fasting and sexual restraint. Recently (2 and a bit months) I added spinal breathing with a few add ons and have found this fantastic, it has considerably deepened my meditations[
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I go through phases (days) of fairly intense sensual cravings, I want to eat heaps and often crave indulgent and unhealthy food, a few days ago it got to the point were I was begging myself not to eat anything else whilst the spoon of food that honesty had a mind of its own entered my mouth... haha I couldn't help but laugh and just try to 'let go'. I have also not been able to fast and I have also had a much stronger sex drive and have found restraint very difficult, this is more concerning as it has a noticeable negative impact on my spiritual practices, these have also been coupled with moderate mood swings
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might just be an adjusting phase but any relevant experience tips etc much appreciated
ps, shortly after writing this throbbing sensations in my brow region have become very uncomfortable....cont next morn.. hello, last night was very uncomfortable it felt like my forehead wanted to collapse into itself and was sucking in 'space' also I had the sensation that the top of my head was going to break open and my brain was expanding, even focusing on an object, looking into the distance or closing my eyes made it more intense. That was not totally bad in itself except I began to become afraid and irrational which would cause floods of adrenaline/energy to overcome me making me want to throw up. I found controlling my thoughts and this phenomena very challenging but I would say overall I was coping. Summing up I would say I was very unbalanced with a lot of energy in the head.
Obviously I have began self pacing