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Week of 3/9/2015 - Summary = stomach gurling, some conductivity, tried adding mulabandha and sambhavi mudras for the first time. Seems to given me loose bowels but not in any uncomfortable way, so chalking that up to purification Monday - did a longer morning session, started it with an epsom salt and clay bath, rinse off shower, 10 minutes of my own favorite asanas (need to get the quick list Yogani suggests and try that), then did 5 min SBP, 5 min SV, 10 min DM, 5 min Samyama.
Later now in the day I listened to my usual focus music for work (Focus at Will app, Oct Beta Test). It is the same 40 min track, played over and over, yet now likely in part to the increased ecstatic conductivity of the practice, I always get goose bumps in a particular part, and sometimes tears of joy while looking out my window at the perfection of nature and humanity around me....
-interesting moment where I was looking at a visiting seagull and felt sorry for it because it is less alpha than another one and gets chased away a lot. I suddenly found myself sending it energy as if to will it to be stronger, and suddenly it was seeming to respond, almost getting taller and a bit agitated...
Will try to just keep editing this particular post as the week goes on that way I have the memories of events fresh in my mind.
Evening practice - SBP, SV, DM, while in Saddhasana, then laying down, early attempts at Samyama, no kechari this time.
Some energetic effects, mainly third eye pulsing, some crown activity. Probably total of 30 to 40 minutes. all combined.
TuesdayAsana->Saddhasana: SBP, SV, DM, Samyama 30 minutes
Right side of body tingles like prior day, interesting so localized to right side. Forgot to add "Akasha" in Samyama. Some stomach gurgling started during samyama. Some coughing too, which had never happened before. Felt like I was coughing up some phlegm... maybe some purification lol.
Better able to catch myself during DM going "outside" to the world and coming back to the mantra almost immediately often, instead of long periods of outside thought.
Ended for some reason with a standing complete Yogic breath, had an amazing vibration effect in my face, thought reality might wink out there for a bit.
Felt just a bit of a pressure in my temples 4 hours later, though could be from working for 4 hours straight...
Evening session - SBP, DM, Samyama - lots of stomach gurgling, very relaxing session though. Mind a bit more restless during DM, yet got my whole forehead to have a very pleasant sensation. Possible Kumbaka starting, went very shallow at least, had to remember to breathe.
Wednesday Did a session at 4 PM, not optimal but better than nothing
Asana 5min, Saddhasana: SBP 10 min, DM 15 min
Forgot Ujayii on the exhale in SBP. Tried mulabanda, but even though I could flex it for long periods, for some reason it felt like the stress of flexing extended down into my leg, so I didnt want to get distracted and gave up on that.
Gurling, an odd burnt smell, dreamlike snipets came as I seemed to drift somewhere, and at some point instead of saying IAM, caught myself randomly saying some other word. Maybe that was me giving myself a secret mantra like they supposedly give you in other traditions lol. Went back to IAM of course...
Evening sessionSBP w/ Mulabandha, DM, Samyama -
Mulabanda - tried the version where I did it only while on the inhale. Starting it each time seemed to immediately send a pulse to my brow well before my SBP got there.
gurgling at the end a bit, not nearly as much as day session. IAM seemed to be easier at one point to keep in rhythm with heart beat. Then later just being witness to the IAM happening on its own made it easier to just keep going without thinking.
ThursdayMorning Saddha asana -> SBP w/ ascending Mulabandha, DM, Samyama - some gurgling, the bottom part of my right index finger had a dull ache, other than that no discomfort.
Night, same routine, tried experimenting with addition of Sambhavi Mudra. Was better at remembering pranayama restriction only on the exhale.
DM - started off really strong, almost unbroken concentration for 2 minutes or so which was a first. Overall a good session. At end, felt like I let the mantra sort of vibrate all of my body, and not just be in my head. Very relaxing feeling. First time in a long time doing it before dinner...
Lots of random memory snipets even going back to childhood during meditation during the last week too...
Brow was throbbing intensely, felt like a mini pulsar.
FridayAM - 5Asana, 5SBP, 5SV, 15DM. Thoughts were harder to control than 3/12.
PM - 10SBP, 25DM, 10Samyama -> Gurgling was really strong, remember feeling somehow comforted by it. Just me and this little universe of trillions of bacteria in my gut getting stimulated by prana...
Had read up more on Samyama and drilled with the 10 sutras so that I remembered them better this time, it was very comforting and I had more stillness during samyama than DM.
Noticed some odd sensation in upper right abdomen under ribs...
SaturdayAM - 5Asana, 7SBP, 5SV, 15DM, 5 Samyama. Started DM with intention to be focused and that helped keep stillness.
PM - 5 SBP, 5 SV, 25 DM no samyama - last 5 min of the DM rather distracted.
Sunday
AM - 10, SBP, 20DM, no bells or whistles. Was somewhat distracted.
PM - felt very ungrounded due to events in the day, a rather incendiary email from a client, lots of tough deadlines. Decided to self pace skipped this session entirely. Slept poorly, but did some brief meditation when I woke at 5 am, felt my body go into a blissful state eventually. Usually in past cases like this I was never able to go back to sleep.
When I woke up, the client had read my email and had a miraculous change of heart.