Thanks for this thread Bodhi. I am overcoming things I did when I was 18/19/ .. I am 50 now. so that was 30+ years ago. I can live in present a lot of the time, but unless I resolve my 30 year ago past, I will keep trying to resolve it :-) ... I am coming close though, where I don't feel the need to judge myself, and where the past is really how it happened because of my awareness (or lack of it) .. the suffering has been done and now, it's time it's over :-)