Dear fellow travelers,
I'd like to share my current experience/phase. Life recently has been showing me the discrepancies between my (and other ppl's) ideas, concepts, and intellectual frameworks and reality....It is everywhere...
When this discrepancy is first encountered, confusion arose (they still come every once a while), then disbelief, doubting of everything, of every dearly-held thought and belief. The doubts extend to the previously sacred spiritual realm, even questions like "Is this all real, or another futile dream?" frequented.
Gradually I came to realize that this is not about any particular thing/event, or belief system, intellectual framework...Because whatever concepts/frameworks/systems are used, or however they are modified, they are shown to be different from reality. There seems to be a ubiquitous and thorough-going discrepancy between the world of the ideas and reality.
The world is now orderless when the Tower of Orders starts to fall away from it. Ideas are now just functional¡the blame on them for not being true to reality starts to fall away, too, because ideas are just ideas. They are just like the myriad things in the world, they just lay there in the same space that hold the things.
The shining tower made of jewels of the mind is collapsing, leaving the lone mariner paddling aimlessly in the dark night of the ocean, alone, and knowing that it's absolutely necessary to fare along, alone, without seeking any "light house" anymore.
Intuition says perhaps it is the light-less and order-less vastness that is the source of freedom¡I allow myself to not know, and just paddle on¡
