Hello AviC,
Welcome to the board and thank you for sharing your blog! Your writing style is very clear and comes at just the right time for me
I'm sure others will also find your posts interesting and refreshing.
You ask specifically about our experiences with the bhavas. I'm currently offering myself more and more as God's servant, offering my mind, heart, body and soul to His service, but have also had tastes of the others either through action, thought, or experience. For example, I remember reading of a certain saint's relationship with God, and how she described whispering thoughts to God as one would to someone who was very close, for example a lover. Such whispers, I find, truly fill the heart with His presence.
Sometimes I have had the thought or feeling of God as a child, not really knowing what He is doing, that it is only through human manifestation that He can come to understand Himself, and that we are an ontological necessity. As such, God doesn't decide to create the Universe or Himself, It is simply all that can be, the accidental necessary experiencer with no beginning or end. This is usually a thought-game, that entertains the mind, but also awakens the heart in moments of clarity.
And sex with God I have experienced in meditation, sometimes with tastes outside. I have never experienced such arousal and pleasure externally. For me, it has been accompanied with a full-physical arousal, heart beating hard and fast; it has been difficult to remain with calm mind, which has often shortened the experience.
Can you recommend any books on the subject? Something that doesn't just describe experiences, but describes daily practises of devotion?
Thanks for sharing your blog posts. I look forward to reading more of them in the future