Thanks, Jim
Yogani writes in the lesson you linked me to above:
"If you feel you are off balance in your practices,
then ease off the ecstasy-producing ones and favor deep meditation
more for a while"
Well. I guess this means that i need to drop both Spinal breathing and Samyama for a while. I am hesitant to drop Spinal breathing - because of the "crown issue". At least now the energy goes mostly towards the ajna. But i can experiment with dropping anything but deep meditation - and then report back.
Jim wrote:
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Consider the things people do to "get more spiritual" (eat light, introvert, seek quiet, nature, and art, etc) and do the opposite. Logical, no?
Great advise, Jim. This is one of the reasons that I change my work now. I need to balance. If I keep treating people at the clinic (which involves a continuous honing of perception skills), singing, writing poetry, hug trees (out walking with my dog), teach meditation, lecture on health issues, guiding students etc......
Well - I will balance with something completely ordinary.
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and drop all energetic practices
All i do, is Pranayama (you don't do that, Jim?), meditation and Samyama.
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but bear in mind that there's no reason to get all woo-woo. Half the intoxication comes from the feeling You're On The Brink of Something Big. It's good to get past that ASAP
I don't at all feel woo-woo
or on the brink of something big. The "intoxication" is simply just that. I don't particularly "want to pay attention to it" - but it is there, isn't it? And yes - it is definitely interfering with "my life". That is why I want to self-pace. It is "how to self-pace the best way" that made me post this.
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I don't mean stopping the ecstacy or repressing it, I mean simply cease to perceive it as ecstacy -which is much more a subjective interpretation than you'd ever imagine.
Actually - what i perceive it to be right now is "a disturbance". Thanks for your link on this - i went through a similar experience in August 2005. the ecstacy/bliss went away for two days. When it came back, something had changed. After this incident I started experiencing the "vapor" (what you call "after glow").
Jim
Your advice is much appreciated. Just so there is no misunderstanding - I move continually deeper. I don't favor ecstacy over stillness. But - as I'm sure you have experienced - periods of a lot of ecstatic conductivity makes it more difficult to access the stillness. This is why i am in need of advise.
Thanks a lot. It is good to know you exist
May all your Nows be Here