Hi Emc
Thanks for the comments: Your breaking it down into segments and analysing it, is tempting to engage in.
When I look at it myself, I see words like friends, love, communication, illusion, no illusion, all bungled into one expression.
What you said about everything being your friend is beautiful, the trees, the grass, the moon, the wall - so true.
Everything is our friend and everything is love when we are in the now.
Some of these "friends" however seem to gather more closely, are more closely connected, connected through communication, whether verbal, written, energy or whatever. So whilst everything is our friend some friends are more particular.
Those particular friends probably have similar patterns in their energy that can create attachments and thereby also create the ground for healing those energy distortions in us. This is all healed through communication, so I see friendship and communication as mutual. (I'm sure you can say this a lot better than me[
]).
Yes, this work has been extraordinarly deep and healing for me[
] and I'm very grateful to all my friends here who have contributed - you being one of them of course emc.
I've probably been pushing myself a lot over the past few months, being more in retreat mode and allowing the raw edges to show themselves more nakedly. I know I can step back into a nice comfortable witness state or equanimity any time I choose. I've also been self pacing these extra practices and have managed to keep them reasonably balanced, sometimes by leaving out meditation for a couple of days.
What you describe in your post on relationships, quoted by Shweta above, is equinimity to me. The deeper the work, the more unshakable the equinimity or witness.
The temptation now is to rest and ease back, but I'm enjoying the fruits of the practice, as are the people around me -most of the time[
]
PS. Since I don't have a lot of conductivity going on I probably depend more on self-inquiry with this sort of stuff.