Dear Karl,
You said "it's resolved" so apparently all is good. But your discussion has prompted me to share my own experience re: stopping practices and what has happened.
Since a few years ago I've been feeling the immediate presence of God all the time, a feeling of freedom, total Love pouring through me, etc., etc. (you know). But I've continued doing my practice for the sheer delight of it; as my teacher says, "yoga is a discipline of pleasure." I will tend to fall into a meditative state whenever I'm not actively "doing" anything else specific, even though yeah, technically nobody is "doing" anything
. Well, over the last year, especially the last few months due to illness, exhaustion and working long hours, I haven't been able to keep up with my practice as much as I'd like, and I've noticed an interesting phenomenon. Last week was extremely stressful and over the last couple of days I feel like I've "lost it" although technically I know there's nothing to lose and nobody to lose it and really nothing has changed except my perception. However, it FEELS different. Normally I just go along cheerfully doing my damndest in the face of the untenable circumstances (as my mom used to say, "Just do your best, that's really all we can do!") and feeling like everything is ok, it's all in God's hands. Well as of Saturday I was completely worn down and took a good hard look at the situation (financially, etc.) and I was like, "omg, this is REALLY f*ng bad!" and I felt quite anxious and upset about it (despite knowing that it's maya). That never happens when I'm doing my practice, hasn't happened in about the last 3 years.
So, here's the strange thing: My cynical side questions whether maybe the yogic state is a delusion, a sort of self-hypnosis whereby I've fooled myself into feeling that "everything is ok" when in fact, it clearly is NOT ok? Maybe "reality" is this acute anxious awareness of what is in fact happening in the human drama in which I find myself?!
I've decided to continue my yoga practice in any case, because even if the above was true, it won't make any difference! i.e., residing in Oneness has not prevented me from being motivated or doing what needs to be done (however futile my activity may be), and experiencing the full impact of maya the last couple of days has not benefited me in any way; in fact, if anything it's actually kind of paralyzing, reminiscent of how life was before, from what I can remember. The grace of God is unchanging and He hasn't gone anywhere, but yoga practice is the means for me to remain in that awareness. So, I need to make time for it.
of course, I'm not saying that this applies to you or anybody else; we each have our own experience of it. just sharing! All the best to you, bro. BTW can you please post the link to your book again? thx.