Ok so I realized that in reality, I can't get OFF my meditation cushion! So I do realize now that even though its only been a short while, I will, in fact, continue my practices even without any type of community... but then there is that fine line between being dependent on a community versus being a part of a community that fosters my spiritual growth- so I certainly don't want to isolate myself as I find you all to help me so much on my journey. It's great to be back!
In fact, I was on a plane flight today and I traveled in a storm. This was probably the second scariest flight for me. Traveling is something I love, but to be honest, flying has been my biggest phobia in life. There was alot of turbulence today and I felt consumed by fear, and I knew that no person could help me and it was only about surrending to God at that point and trusting whatever His will is. So out of desperation, I went into the IAM mantra the whole time during the turbulence and for the first time ever, I felt a real sense of peace and calmness even under those conditions. So, yeah, I suppose I'm not giving up my practices any time soon!!