Hello everybody (:
i have been an ayp practitioner for the last 4.5 years and had a pretty smooth run so far with a steady increase of inner silence and a gradual increase of prana that moves through my nervous system. Stoked !!
I have found that i am quite tolerable with practices and have enjoyed pushing myself when i can and of course self pacing when i found irritably to uncomfortable.
But...
For the first time i am in the midst of an over load which is quite different from all previous ones and very much more intense and overwhelming at times, and it all seems to be centred in my heart.
It is bringing a lot of dark, and heavy feelings into the heart region, my mind will interpret them as loneliness, sadness, depression, a deep longing for intimacy of some sort ect.
I feel as if the heart is maybe being purified or blocked? like it must cleanse itself if it is to open up a bit? For i have had quite a "dry" heart the last 7 years or so, and been practicing heart breathing the last few months to try and moisten the bastard up! (:
My question is if anyone has had similar experience with the heart. Experiencing these dark feeling before an opening of some sort. or any recommendations to help it open, I have become very drawn to kirtan chanting the last couple of days almost in a desperate way as it seems to lift the heart out of this dark place and into some light!!!
Regards
Sam