Got to see Amma today
How I was able to make it is a small miracle - between a busy work morning, travel this afternoon and the location being unfavorable to easy access/parking, I didn't think I could.. But yesterday, I thought about her, felt a pang of longing and surrendered, thinking that if she wants to bless me, she will get me there.. With no effort at all, I was able to switch my work schedule.. And found that some friends were also going, and they insisted on driving many extra miles to pick me up and drop me off
Clearly she wanted me there!
The minute she walked in, the tears started flowing.. Felt my whole being vibrating during the guided meditation.. And felt unusually anxious as my turn for the hug came up.. It might have been brief, but felt like an eternity being in her embrace.. She kept whispering "beautiful daughter" in my ear in my native language.. And the tears flowed and flowed.. Sitting to the side, I was lost, unable to form a single coherent thought, trembling like a leaf..
Even though I've had her Darshan before, this was different. She seemed to look right through me as I knelt down.. Someone said I could ask a question if I wanted to, but not one single thing came up.. Yet she gave me something I can't yet put in words.
Still feel her touch, and the trembling continues.. As do the tears writing this.. Returning,I knew what I need to do - visit her ashram during my next trip to India.
Thank you my dearest Parallax, for gently nudging me to not miss this Darshan. As always, you know exactly what I need at any given time. <3
Love,
kami