Hi Alvin:
I'd leave the spinal breathing out of tantric sex until much later. It is enough to develop the habit of preorgasmic sex. Once you do, then breathing response will become automatic. That is not 100% preorgasmic -- just gradually developing more natural ability than now. It is not an edict, just a favoring with normal sexual activity (whatever ours may be) over months and years.
Spinal breathing is not necessarily for preserving sexual energy -- it is for awakening and balancing ascending and descending pranas in the sushumna between root and brow -- a much broader function than only preserving sexual energy. Once sexual energy is being cultivated via tantric methods, then spinal breathing can do more with it. It comes after certain basics are occurring...
As for losing desire, that may be a shift to inner ecstatic, but it sounds like maybe not. Not sure what is happening there. The spiritual transformation is to more desire, refining to never-ending gentleness of love, becoming divine and going inward and upward feeding into the processes of spiritual biology higher up. All of this requires development of the spiritual biology via the means in sitting practices -- deep meditation, spinal breathing (in sitting practices, not sex), mudras, bandhas, samyama, etc. All this is built up step-by-step over a long time, as we discussed in other topics. Rome was not built in a day.
The
AYP lessons provide a recommended sequence and methodology for doing all this.
So, sex is only one aspect, and putting spinal breathing into it in the beginning is premature in my opinion, with so many other important aspects to be addressed first. Just learning gradually to be more preorgasmic via the means in the
tantra lessons is plenty for now.
And, no, meditation is not for doing right after sexual activity, tantric or not. Twice per day before morning and evening meal and activities is the formula for meditation.
All the best on your path.
And happy holidays, everyone!
The guru is in you.