With regard to Joseph's question about the balance of inner silence and ecstasy: Please note, I used the term "Bliss" above to refer to my experience of both physical and spiritual ecstasy, whereas I note AYP refers to the inner silence as "bliss" and the physical aspect as "ecstasy." For me, in the past both of these things were happening, not always at the same time, mostly during meditation. I did indeed pine for them when they were not happening, i.e. during my normal waking existence, which I had to endure as a sort of purgatory in between meditation sessions. More recently when my whole reality shifted, the silence and ecstasy took over together and seem to have merged into a holistic experience which I am calling "Bliss" and which involves the body and soul so completely that I don't really perceive a "physical" versus "spiritual" separation; it's like the body IS spiritual and/or the spirit is manifesting the body. I'm not sure how it would feel to have the silence without the ecstasy or vice versa; until reading the AYP forum I assumed they went together. However, as mentioned previously, for me the Bliss is ultimately a manifestation of the presence of God, infinite Love, which is constant and I assume gives rise to both the silence and the ecstasy. Much Love to you all.