I have a question relating to Karma which also ties in to surrender. Recently I have had a resurgence in some anxious/OCD thoughts/worries relating to disease etc, some are more rational than others, in summary, most are arising due to my current place of work: a drug and alcohol detox ward hence there are a lot of people with blood born viruses, hep c etc.
I am worrying could I have caught this or that by doing this or that, basically being hyper vigilant with regards to health and cleaning/washing almost obsessively; the mind is thinking up some very elaborate, convoluted ways that could cause infection.
My questions relating to all this: is Karma unavoidable? Is Karma what we deserve? Is Karma what we need? Is everything that happens perfect/needed? E.g. there is no point worrying about anything as everything is as it should be? If I surrender and trust Karma, everything will be fine, because everything is fine and can't be any other way and is only not fine because I don't trust and I am not able to let go.
So basically everything that should happen is going to happen and there is no point worrying about anything (r.e. anxious thoughts: 'if that touched this, which touched that, which could have touched that and that could have touched that' etc), as what is happening is happening and what is going to happen, is going to happen and meant to happen and all I can do is just take the normal safety measures that are policy in the workplace. If I am meant to catch a disease or get bumped on the head, it is all perfect and all meant to happen and is going to happen and it is all all providing an opportunity to awaken. Like my recent anxious tendencies, shining a light on the nature of all of minds workings and worries, enabling me to work something out and let go.
Am I making sense, this is sort of difficult to ask/explain. Just ask if anything needs clarifying.
Love and Gratitude. x