PureandClean
India
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Posted - Jun 26 2019 : 11:52:56 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Topic Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Message Delete Topic
It's been a week since i am celibate. i am doing spiritual practices also which will help in transmutation process. last night I slipped and watched a bit of porn, But i instantly closed it and went outside of my home jogging to distract myself. When i watched porn i felt like if i have sprung an energetic leak and i feel quite uncomfortable and energetically uncomposed. I know i shouldn't be watching porn specially when i am on spiritual journey. But i am afraid since this event because i think i have accumulated a bit of heat in my genitals. Now i don't know if i should just masturbate and clear it out ( but that will waste my week long effort) or i should do something which could reverse what lust has done.
Dogboy
USA
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Posted - Jun 27 2019 : 07:47:59 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Are you practicing AYP deep meditation?
Personally I don?t think you are spiritually and emotionally stable enough to be withholding your seed for extended intervals at present. You obviously have an attachment to porn which is causing you angst, and rigid celibacy is only going to throw gasoline on this fire. In AYP we practice a disciplined meditation 20 minutes twice a day, and go about our daily lives. As you are stable with this, and develop a stable spiritual mindset, brahmacharya (
https://www.aypsite.com/T9.html) becomes a valuable tool to advance. Certainly avoid porn as it is troubling for you, but if you slip, be gentle on yourself and strive to go beyond it. A disciplined spiritual meditation practice will eventually make this easier too. Good luck
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PureandClean
India
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Posted - Jun 27 2019 : 11:12:53 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
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Originally posted by Dogboy
Are you practicing AYP deep meditation?
Personally I don?t think you are spiritually and emotionally stable enough to be withholding your seed for extended intervals at present. You obviously have an attachment to porn which is causing you angst, and rigid celibacy is only going to throw gasoline on this fire. In AYP we practice a disciplined meditation 20 minutes twice a day, and go about our daily lives. As you are stable with this, and develop a stable spiritual mindset, brahmacharya (
https://www.aypsite.com/T9.html) becomes a valuable tool to advance. Certainly avoid porn as it is troubling for you, but if you slip, be gentle on yourself and strive to go beyond it. A disciplined spiritual meditation practice will eventually make this easier too. Good luck
I know i should increase my meditation time but what should i do now? Masturbation or something else?
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Dogboy
USA
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Posted - Jun 27 2019 : 7:36:06 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
If it is truly unbearable, then yes, go ahead. You can try to cool things off first by a cold shower or tub soak, perhaps go swimming. You can take your mind off it by socializing with friends, getting out and about in nature, gardening, being of service to someone or something. Wherever you place attention, energy follows. By placing your attention elsewhere (outside of yourself) you may find relief.
Withholding seed is a noble spiritual pursuit, but if you are rigid with it, if you are filled with shame or judgement, or are unstable in mind or body, then it is best to pursue it at a better time.
