Love

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lalow33
USA
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Posted - Jul 06 2017 :  7:10:53 PM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Edit Topic  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Message  Delete Topic
So....how the all loves me and how I love the all is the same twisted pattern. It's a chicken or the egg thing, I don't remember what came first.

So love starts with anger and then a hiding, an alone feeling. I can recognize this as love and receive it, but I'd like to straighten it out. I don't want to give that out anymore.

I don't know how to straighten it out. If I start messing around and try to fix stuff, it gets messy.

It seems like my best course is my Ishta and Samyama. I'm sure there are other ways.

Chard
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 Posted - Jul 31 2017 :  10:26:26 PM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
 thank you for sharing!
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Bodhi Tree
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 Posted - Jul 31 2017 :  10:35:13 PM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Visit Bodhi Tree's Homepage  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
Amen, and Hallelujah.
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Radharani
USA
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 Posted - Aug 03 2017 :  04:00:18 AM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Visit Radharani's Homepage  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
quote:
Originally posted by lalow33

So....how the all loves me and how I love the all is the same twisted pattern. It's a chicken or the egg thing, I don't remember what came first.

So love starts with anger and then a hiding, an alone feeling. I can recognize this as love and receive it, but I'd like to straighten it out. I don't want to give that out anymore.

I don't know how to straighten it out. If I start messing around and try to fix stuff, it gets messy.

It seems like my best course is my Ishta and Samyama. I'm sure there are other ways.




ah, the "anger... hiding... alone feeling" - longing - sounds an awful lot like "The Devotional Poems of Mirabai," which in turn echoes "Jayadeva's Gitagovinda." Some schools including, I think, ISKCON, say that this state of separation or longing is the ultimate. I disagree, but to each their own.


You said you don't know how to "straighten it out" or "fix" it. I'm not sure anything needs to be "fixed" but if it does, I totally agree w/ you that the best course is through your Ishta, and I'd hold 'em to it! Hence Radha's anger at His seeming fickleness. Fortunately this classic story ends w/ perfect Union and ecstasy.   
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BlueRaincoat
United Kingdom
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 Posted - Aug 03 2017 :  07:35:07 AM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
quote:
Originally posted by Radharani
I'm not sure anything needs to be "fixed" but if it does, I totally agree w/ you that the best course is through your Ishta, and I'd hold 'em to it! Hence Radha's anger at His seeming fickleness. Fortunately this classic story ends w/ perfect Union and ecstasy.   
Nice metaphor
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lalow33
USA
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 Posted - Aug 19 2017 :  11:03:42 PM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
Oh Radharani,
I just love you and your advice.
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lalow33
USA
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 Posted - Sep 16 2017 :  9:09:02 PM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
My Ishta is finally sending a small amount of light into my heart( not too much). A little bit and a little bit.

Yes, I'm holding him to it. It's hard to stay mad at him with the light and all.
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Dogboy
USA
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 Posted - Sep 16 2017 :  11:16:46 PM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
  Lalow
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Bodhi Tree
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 Posted - Sep 17 2017 :  12:05:13 AM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Visit Bodhi Tree's Homepage  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply

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Radharani
USA
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 Posted - Dec 08 2017 :  8:31:00 PM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Visit Radharani's Homepage  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
quote:
Originally posted by lalow33

Oh Radharani,
I just love you and your advice.


I love you too. 
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Chard
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 Posted - Dec 11 2017 :  12:48:53 AM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
what a love fest over here!
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Blanche
USA
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 Posted - Jan 25 2018 :  06:39:47 AM  Show Profile  Email Poster  Visit Blanche's Homepage  Edit Reply  Reply with Quote  View user's IP address  Get a Link to this Reply  Delete Reply
quote:
Originally posted by lalow33

My Ishta is finally sending a small amount of light into my heart( not too much). A little bit and a little bit.

Yes, I'm holding him to it. It's hard to stay mad at him with the light and all.