Hey,
I recently attempted using the Holosync CDs again - the first couple of days were really dissolving, releasing, deeply relaxing meditations, and then whomph! up came depression, anxiety, low-self-esteem, feelings of unworthiness, unlovability.
Any attempt of doing anything with the feelings does nothing. Doing nothing, well, does nothing. So these feelings are just here now. While I tend to be a bit of a determined hardhead, the intensity of negativity I am experiencing is ruining my daily experience of life - maybe in retreat I would be willing to undergo this, but not here, and not now.
While I am willing to surrender judgement to feelings, it is nothing but damaging to my relationships, job, and self-esteem at the moment.
My plan is to drop meditation until this settles, and drop holosync
for good. Then get my 15/20 minutes twice a day again.
Unfortunately this has put me into a negative spin on life for a few days, it's been difficult.. does anybody know of any good ways to help me snap out of this, or do I just have to wait for the energies to release(through surrender) and subside (through time)?
Hope this finds you all well!
Thanks,
Jack