I'm coming up on 1 year of doing twice a day AYP practices without having missed a session and I have taken some time recently to reflect on how things have changed for me after this effort. In the spirit of the science of yoga and doing our best to verify cause and effect, I thought it would be fun to discuss some of the changes we have observed in ourselves inside and outside of practices.
Reflecting over the last year of practices, I have definitely noticed some differences in the dynamics. I remember not being able to feel my spine or spinal nerve much at all at the beginning outside of any major energy surges. I remember becoming aware of the spinal nerve very acutely one day outside of practices, more near the base, and noticed that over the last year, my awareness of the spinal nerve during pranayama and meditation has increased at a steady rate. I now have a steady ecstatic feeling in the spine which is not nearly as intense as times of intense purification or energy surges, but is growing steadily and daily.
I make a distinction between energy surges (which still happen but are fewer and farther between) and the way I feel during regular practices because i think the latter is the best reflection of how things really are. I used to look for the energy surges and want to hang on to them because a- they felt so good and b- they were very physical and real examples of big things happening, but the truth is they are fleeting and come and go and aren't permanent like the things that grow slowly over time.
Changes I have noticed in my conduct and conduct towards others were covered a while back in this post:
http://www.aypsite.com/plus-forum/index.php?topic=545&whichpage=1In addition to these improvements in conduct, I am not sure why but it is easier to read people and understand their thoughts, feelings and motives. One of the most poignant things that has happened is that I feel much more completely in the here and now. When in this head-space (for lack of a better description), everything is more intense looking, vivid, colorful etc. and even the most mundane activities become fascinating. I feel more in tune with the energy around me and as I mentioned in another post I often feel I am carrying around an inner happiness that radiates from the inside and is very comforting. For some time now, I also see a barely suggested background luminescence, for lack of a better description, like white waves or points of light on a dark background whenever looking at any object, like a wall, the floor, the sky, my foot, always there behind it all, always present, can’t explain it.
I would love to hear what others have observed?