Dave,
Thanks for responding again. The guru can be seen and read at
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Kundalini_online/ . She isn't the girl from Antioch, I don't think.
Do you regularly talk to your guru? Are you guessing that he would never tell someone to quit all spiritual things, or have you asked him this? What if the person argued with him? I was argumentative with the guru I went to (for good reasons in my mind) and she seemed offended and closed off. I asked her why she was bowing to a rock (the shiva lingham) in some pictures, since it didn't make sense that shiva isn't merely contained in a rock. I also asked her what the sanyasa ritual was all about...not direspectfully, although she took it that way, but I wanted to know what it meant. How could someone go through all of the motions without understanding why they're doing certain things, like putting water on a rock or bowing towards a fire? I also didn't follow her advice on celibacy. It caused too much stress for me to be completely celibate, and I didn't trust her enough to follow through with it. She told me to go to a Vipassana retreat, and I didn't go because I started experiencing extreme kundalini symptoms when I tried the practice. There were physical changes going on underneath my skin...it felt like water was rushing out of my hands, and there was a cold liquid going through my forearm into my pointer finger and thumb which caused them to move, and it seemed like my eyes opened up completely although I looked in the mirror and looked normal. I didn't want my kundalini to burst, so I didn't go. Also there were a lot of things in my life which conflicted with going. Same for when I was going to go visit her, to get shaktipat. Everything fell through no matter how hard I tried to go. So it seemed overall, like I was being guided away from her.
When I told her this she kind of scolded me and said not to do anything spiritual at all anymore, and that she was saying it out of compassion because she didn't want me to get hurt. That's about the only thing she said that I had faith in...except for the compassion part. But it did seem like I could get hurt if I continued messing around with this stuff...especially at times when "it" happens.
Anyway, that's the story. The Divine Sound cd you mention always looked good to me, although I wouldn't want to listen to it and then not talk to the guru...but I know he is busy handing out grace everywhere. So for now, I guess I'll stick to nothing spiritual.
Thank you again, Dave. Namaste.