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Originally posted by Scott
It is kind of like crystal meth, which I have tried twice in my life. The same type of brain activity. To describe it with simple words: hyper awakeness...clarity. It's not what it seems like when you read those things, and you try to imagine what that would be like, of course. (Also, I hope no one tries crystal meth because of this. That drug ruined some of my friend's lives)
Hope this message has helped in some way. Maybe in bringing more understanding about the subject of kundalini.
Hi Scott,
Thanks so much for sharing so much of your experience, so openly - I fully respect where you're coming from, and genuinely appreciate your comments.
I have also tried crystal meth - a bit more than twice.
It's as "bad news" as a chemical can be (and in my opinion, is by far the worst drug ever created - makes heroin seem benign) - but addiction to anything, especially strong chemicals, can ruin your life and/or kill your body.
If, per your post, someone is interested in similar experiences, I do recommend they try AYP, and specifically Tantric Sexual practices, instead of crystal meth.
Why?
As some reading this likely know, stimulating the second chakra - sexual energies, specifically -- acts as kind of a turbo-charger to Kundalini - and ultimately, over time (per AYP Tantra Lessons, and other yogic information) the essence of sexual energy is literally changed, and raised up through the sadhaka's system, to enhance its evolution.
How does this relate to what you wrote about crystal meth?
Well, as you may know, in recent decades, Western science has mapped the chakras to the body's endocrine system -- and related biochemical activities and effects.
One of the main bodily systems stimulated when sexual energy is activated is the adrenal system - which in turns gives us some of the common effects of sexual stimulation - dilated pupils, increased heartbeat, rapid breathing, etc.
When we snort a line of crystal meth, one of the main bodily systems that is activated is the adrenal system - which in turns gives us some of the common effects of crystal methamphetamine use - dilated pupils, increased heartbeat, rapid breathing, etc.
So, it's no wonder that some of the effects "seem" similar -- neurophysiologically, they are!
I would just much rather get there by caressing a beautiful female partner, than by nasally ingesting powdered poison.
And seriously, though - I've told some of my long-term friends (who knew me in my "never met a substance I didn't like" days) that the ecstatic conductivity I experience now, is FAR better than the best combination of all the sex and drugs I ever experienced.
Yogic bliss IS that great!
And I do fully respect that the way through can be scary.
I certainly don't know how to advise you there, other than to simply remind you that the guru is in you.
And, that the bumps get smaller, and the payoff gets bigger, as you continue.
Even today (all weekend, actually), I've had some weird stuff come roaring to the surface - very acutely -- memories from when I was in high school, or in my 20s -- strongly enough that I once shouted out a terse scream / shout, and another time, simply "F***!!"
(I don't know how the forum is regarding profanity -- but knowing it's all-ages, thought I should "asterisk appropriately"!)
The nature of the exclamation was my own sense of guilt, over the way I'd been in a given situation (different ones; little vignettes or memories popping up.)
Nothing like this has happened in years.
When it would happen before, I'd kind of obsess, or be afraid of "more".
Now, it's like, "Oh - weird --- but just thoughts. Just emotions. Some purification stuff going on. If it gets to be too much, I'll back off -- but maybe good to let it go, too."
Like that.
So, very un-fun -- but recent progress has enabled me not to be bowled over by it, and to realize that it's likely a good thing / release, as long as I can handle it -- and so far, it seems I can.
I used to let my mind scare me away from things. I don't do that any more. Doesn't mean I don't still get plenty scared at times - I just no longer think myself down roads that aren't in my best interest, by letting my mind run with "what if this?" and "what if that?"(hopefully; no claims to perfection in that, or anything else, mind you).
And I'm not saying this is how you should proceed -- just as you don't want someone trying meth due to your post, I don't want to hear that you drove off the road, because you let "it" happen fully, due to my post!
By all means, let your inner wisdom be your guide.
The guru IS in you.
Peace & Namaste,
Kirtanman