sunyata
USA
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 08:48:31 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Topic Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Message Delete Topic
Hi Friends,
Lately I've been posting a lot from the view of knowingness but felt like sharing some of my humaness ( is that even a word ).
I've been overloading again for few days and the kids have been taking turns to get sick. So lots of grounding right now.
I haven't had a good night sleep for the past 5 years. All parents know this feeling. At the same time, I would not trade this joy of parenthood with anything.
All I want to do is enjoy a glass of wine. This body mind does not tolerate alcoholic beverages anymore. There is no going back. Just letting everything arise to awareness. Enough of my complaining.. But all this is happening with the infinite silence in the background. Just wanted to share this as well.
Sunyata
Charliedog
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 10:11:12 AM Show Profile Email Poster Visit Charliedog's Homepage Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Dear Sunyata,
You must be feeling like this Thank you for sharing your humanity, I know being a mother of small children is not easy, never a day or night off I hope you are feeling very soon like this
Much love and to you
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sunyata
USA
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 10:43:27 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Thanks, Charliedog. You picked the right emotion. Picky eater not feeling well
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BillinL.A.
USA
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 11:08:14 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Your personality is one of your kids too Sunyata.
Even with the infinite silence in the background give your little sunyata a treat. If not wine then something else special.
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sunyata
USA
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 2:12:38 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
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Your personality is one of your kids too Sunyata
Lol...Life is fun with a little humor and child like qualities.
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Even with the infinite silence in the background give your little sunyata a treat. If not wine then something else special.
I have almost finished a box of cheesecake that my friends bought me last weekend. Last two pieces left, they will probably be gone by the end of today. So much for a yogic and gluten free diet.
It's always fun sharing with you BillinL.A. Thank You for your comments, made me LOL .
Edited by - sunyata on Oct 22 2015 9:52:09 PM
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kumar ul islam
United Kingdom
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Ecdyonurus
Switzerland
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 3:47:48 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Hi Sunyata, I really resonate with your post - I am currently raising my child alone...
Some days it seems to be an impossible task, other times it is just wonderful.
Some times it is both at the same time, and those are probably the moments I like most.
I send you some
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BillinL.A.
USA
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 5:43:04 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Sunyata its your Holy duty to eat up that lovingly shared cheesecake from your friend.
I relish your fellowship on the forum.
Your post of your relative as a "jivamukta" has echoed in my mind so many times with a taste of the Infinite...Thank you!!!
I have to be honest and say this body/mind enjoys a huge glass of wine to placate little Billy's tantrums.
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Dogboy
USA
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My goes out to you. Cheesecake sounds like good medicine for today, to get you to the next rest stop, and this turmoil will pass, dear Sunyata. Your dependents will one day be all grown and independent, and what will you do with all that "mothering"? The great Warren Zevon sang, "I'll sleep when I'm dead" (and is now resting in peace, God bless his spirit). I pray you won't have to wait that long!
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sunyata
USA
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Posted - Oct 22 2015 : 8:42:43 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Hi Ecdyonurus- from one parent to another . Another for raising your child alone.
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I have to be honest and say this body/mind enjoys a huge glass of wine to placate little Billy's tantrums.
Hi BillinL.A.~ Unfortunately there is no "envious" emotion.
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My goes out to you. Cheesecake sounds like good medicine for today, to get you to the next rest stop, and this turmoil will pass, dear Sunyata. Your dependents will one day be all grown and independent, and what will you do with all that "mothering"? The great Warren Zevon sang, "I'll sleep when I'm dead" (and is now resting in peace, God bless his spirit). I pray you won't have to wait that long!
Thanks,Dogboy. I love mothering and don't want them to grow up. I worry when they are sick and don't eat much. I'm okay with my lack of sleep but their lack of appetite makes me sad.
Edited by - sunyata on Oct 22 2015 9:47:10 PM
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Charliedog
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SeySorciere
Seychelles
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Posted - Oct 23 2015 : 03:13:18 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
from one mother to another. My children are "almost grown-up" (daughter 20, son 16). My son still causes me endless worries. He is not doing well at school. I am finding it hard to walk the talk. On one hand, I know he is a soul who is here on his path (not mine)and that I should respect his choices and guide him towards his happiness. On the other hand I am well aware of the way this world works and without a good academic background life can become very hard. On the other academic accomplishment does not mean material success.
Ah...the woes of a mother
Sey
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BlueRaincoat
United Kingdom
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Posted - Oct 23 2015 : 09:28:22 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Dear Sunyata, sorry to hear you're having such a tough time. I hope you get some good rest at the weekend and that things will settle down by next week. Take care
Sey, you may be surprised how many people without an academic background have done really well in their professional lives. Your son might turn out to be one of them. Aren't you taking too much upon yourself thinking you should "guide him towards his happiness"? You are bringing him up, with love, but finding his happiness has to be his own doing (or non-doing?). I don't now all the circumstance of course, but I have a bit of a suspicion you might just need to relax a bit more about this.
Edited by - BlueRaincoat on Oct 23 2015 09:57:49 AM
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SeySorciere
Seychelles
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Posted - Oct 24 2015 : 02:25:50 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
@Blueraincoat - I totally need to relax about this but like mentioned I am finding it hard to walk the talk.
Sey
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Beehive
USA
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Posted - Oct 25 2015 : 9:33:31 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Hey SeySorcierce.... I am a little further down the parenting path - my kids are 26 year old daughter, 24 year old son. My experience says "Walk your talk!" You have it right - academic success does not determine material success and even more material success does not guarantee ANY of the important stuff. And furthermore....worry does guarantee something....worry!!!
Be stronger than probably all the parents around you. Don't waver from the truth you know: It IS his life, his path, his mistakes to make, his pleasures to have. You get the pleasure of watching him explore. It was hard with my son for the same reason as yours. One way I bridged it was that we learned to laugh that all my big philosophical ideas about each person is entitled to live their own path - somehow did not apply to my children. (it was pretty funny how I rationalized that!!) I explained why that was - parents want so much for their kids and to help their kids have less pain than they had . Being able to admit my own shortcoming and being willing to share MY fear rather than blame him for my fear lightened the load for all of us. And he trusted me so much more which has turned out to be very fun.
There are still hurts, but I feel more like he and I are in it together, rather than me blaming him for my fears.
Good luck. You are right - It is hard. But it's pretty wonderful too.
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Bodhi Tree
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Sunyata...you're beautiful.
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SeySorciere
Seychelles
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Posted - Oct 26 2015 : 05:27:25 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Thank you Beehive. It's good to hear from a parent who has been there. My fears lie with the fact that my son says he wants one thing but puts no effort into aiming for that. He wants to join the Maritime school but makes no effort to make the grades for that school.
But like you say worrying will not help with anything. Que sera, sera.
Sey
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sunyata
USA
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Posted - Oct 26 2015 : 09:53:19 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Oh Sey..You speak my mind. When I went through the phase that the world is an illusion, I was okay with whatever my kids chose to do because it was their path.
Now it's totally changed, I want the best for them like all parents. I try my best to be a good mother I can and nurture and guide them. I know in the back of my mind, that's the only thing I can do and then they'll have to walk their path.
Even with everything going on, I'm sure you feel a space(the peace). Your worries are not drowning you . It's all happening. But at the same time, like you said "you know how the world works". I cannot offer any advice because I would probably feel the same as you do. All I can say is I understand what you are going through.Like Yogani says" Everything will be alright"
Hugs,
Sunyata
Edited by - sunyata on Oct 26 2015 09:55:44 AM
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sunyata
USA
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Posted - Oct 26 2015 : 09:59:37 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Thanks, Blue. I took your advise and drove seven hours to see my cousin. We had so much fun and I didn't mind getting pampered by them.
Awwww~~~~~~Thanks, Bodhi and so are you.
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Beehive
USA
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Posted - Oct 26 2015 : 1:09:02 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
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Originally posted by SeySorciere
Thank you Beehive. It's good to hear from a parent who has been there. My fears lie with the fact that my son says he wants one thing but puts no effort into aiming for that. He wants to join the Maritime school but makes no effort to make the grades for that school.
But like you say worrying will not help with anything. Que sera, sera.
Sey
lots of love to you while you pass through this phase.
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SeySorciere
Seychelles
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Prem
Canada
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Hi sunyata- ah those fond memories of wiping fevered brow and holding the barf bucket. Now mine are 26 and 28 and I often wish they were little again
And Sey - this too shall pass. They do find their way. But in the meantime we keep on earning those grey hairs . All a part of being human
to you all
Edited by - Prem on Oct 29 2015 6:13:19 PM
