Ankha
United Kingdom
2 Posts
Posted - Feb 02 2020 : 06:55:43 AM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Topic Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Message Delete Topic
Hello
I?d love some guidance on how to safely contain and work with the constant root vibrations that I am experiencing. I have answered the standard questions below.
I am willing to follow the AYP system at the pace most suitable for myself. I see where I am as exciting and from reading around understand that the vibrations are a type of purification. I feel a process is underway that cannot be turned off which I accept. It?s just knowing how to respect and cultivate this loving motherly energy in a safe way. Any help would be much appreciated.
Ankha
1. What are your symptoms and how long have you had them? Are your symptoms primarily physical, psychological, or both?
My primary symptom now is that I have a constant vibrating/pulsing/shaking that moves between my root (almost uterus area) and lower back. It?s not offensive or excessively strong. Others can feel it too. Earlier this year I was feeling very minty and breezy on the third eye and all over my body, particularly the legs. Then it was all about the feet, it felt very blissful in that area. I also felt a big opening in my throat and third eye area this year too. Since December it started with pain in uterus and ovary which has built into the throbbing. Nothing major but I am sensitive.
Psychologically I find my moods are up and down and I am being pushed by my unconscious mind to work on my ?father wound? as well as other shadow aspects of myself. I am addressing fears and analytically challenging them in context of a bigger picture.
On a couple of occasions when I have been working with energy meditations, I have gone into a hyper active blissful fast paced state suddenly followed by a paranoid fearful state. I backed off the energy exercises.
2. Are your symptoms ongoing, or intermittent? If intermittent, when are they most likely to occur -- during what kind of activity and/or time of the day? Is your sleep affected?
I am constantly throbbing and shaking at the root but it varies in intensity. It tends to increase in intensity as I sit and relax in the evening and when I lie down to go to sleep. I have been having poor sleep due some disturbances but that?s another story! My energy is quite low and veering to more to the lethargic.
If I practise reiki the throbbing increases. I received my reiki masters invitation couple of months ago.
I have also had flashes of past lives and other visuals as well as encounters with not entirely pleasant non human entities. Encountered pleasant ones too. Trying to ignore all beings now as I realise they are distraction.
3. Do you consider your situation with kundalini to be the result of spiritual practices, or do you regard it to be spontaneous?
I believe that my kundalini was activated 5 years ago following a commitment to a spiritual path. The last 5 years have focused on self reflection, healing and gradual breaking down of old ways. I have also received energetic transmissions that may have contributed to the healing process thereby clearing the way for the energy.
4. What sort of spiritual practices have you been engaged in, if any? How long? How often? Are you aware that excessive spiritual practice can aggravate kundalini, often with a delayed reaction?
Not much now as I?m sensitive. I?ll do a mantra meditation here and there which will last for 20-30mins. I do work with energy and do meditations involving moving and clearing energy. I have done some yoga and pranayama in the past but nothing consistent. I am inconsistent in my practises but I do contemplate spiritual matters daily.
5. Do you consider yourself to be ?sensitive? to spiritual practices? If so, with what practices, and what sort of measures have you taken to accommodate your sensitivity?
Yes, I am sensitive. Last year I started AYP practices which initially went well. After a week or so I was having electrical charges running through my body, disturbed sleep and anger surfacing. The anger leaked into my day job persona which was not great! I was also having beautiful cool breezes on the forehead and all over cool bliss breezes on the body. I decided to stop all practices for about 6 months.
6. Do you think drugs have contributed to your kundalini situation?
I do not consider plant medicines drugs but I do think working with the plant medicine Ayahuasca catapulted the process. However it had started naturally 6 months before I worked with the plant. My first experience with Aya had me go into convulsions, spontaneous mudras of the hands and speaking in tongues etc. I had no idea that it was kundalini for about a year after. It was a very intense and scary experience but perhaps something I had to experience personally in order to break down my heavy ego defence mechanisms. Other sessions with this plant and others have helped my to work through deep rooted trauma. I think the plants have a place but are not required to awaken nor do I recommend them necessarily. Some personalities need a more direct and heavy approach because we had developed such strong ego defences as a result of deep rooted trauma.
7. Have you experienced traumatic events in your life that may have a bearing on your current symptoms?
I have experienced trauma in early childhood. I do not believe this trauma is impacting on my symptoms though I am being encouraged to work with the impact of this trauma at a deeper level. I feel this is a good thing.
8. Is your sexual lifestyle affecting your symptoms? Are you aware that obsessively limiting sexual release can increase kundalini energy and symptoms?
I don?t have an active sex life nor have for the last 5 years. I do release and I?m not prudish and would like to work with sexual energy more.
9. What is your general diet? Are you aware that a lighter diet can stimulate kundalini?
My diet is pretty poor at the moment. Lazy vegetarian. Eating things that are not really compatible with my system such as cheese and bread. I?m overweight and could do with eating less. I know how to eat well but become lax in this area.
10. Do you engage in moderate exercise regularly, like walking, yard work, etc? Are you aware that regular exercise can help stabilize ("ground") kundalini symptoms?
No I?m pretty inactive although I would like to move towards a daily walking and asana practice.
11. Are you a highly devotional person? Are you aware that excessive devotional activity, satsang or spiritual study can aggravate an active kundalini?
I do think about spiritual matters lots. I find most other topics uninteresting. I have longed for yoga since I was a young child and have been trying to find my way back home ever since.
12. Are you engaged in ordinary daily activities like a job, school, family, parenting, social activity, service to others? Are you aware that such activities, undertaken without spiritual intention or expectations, can help ground excessive kundalini energies?
Yes I have a day job. I do socialise but it does tend to be with spiritual oriented people. I would like to do more service and community work which I will look into.
13. Have you been examined and treated by a medical doctor or mental health professional for your symptoms in the past? If so, what was the result?
No as I don?t feel it unmanageable at present.
14. Are there other factors and/or measures you are taking in relation to your situation that are not covered above?
No.
15. Optional: What is your approximate age (teen, 20s, 30s, 40s, etc.)? What is your gender? We ask because the manifestation of kundalini symptoms can be affected by these factors.
I?ve just turned 40.
BlueRaincoat
United Kingdom
1550 Posts
Posted - Feb 02 2020 : 5:04:10 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Hello Ankha
Welcome to the AYP forum.
Yes, you are sensitive to practices. Mantra meditation is probably too strong for you. I recommend reading
Lesson 367 and, after you've done some grounding, try meditation on the breath for 10 minutes once a day.
I think the priority should be grounding for now. It's not a great season for long walks, but the winter has been mild so far. If it keeps like this, a nice long walk every day could be quite pleasant.
Also you will need to try to rein in your bhakti a little. I know it's not easy and that you might feel emotionally bereft, but intense bhakti is fueling the energy. Since you have read the lessons, you might remember that we need to keep a balance between the inner silence and energy. Leading with the silence, that is prioritising meditation, will give you a smoother journey. So I would consider reducing the time you spend on various spiritual pursuits other than meditation.
My two cents. I hope you find a routine that is sustainable. Good luck! Let us know how you get on.
Ankha
United Kingdom
2 Posts
Posted - Feb 03 2020 : 12:46:36 PM Show Profile Email Poster Edit Reply Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Reply Delete Reply
Thank you BlueRaincoat. #9829;#65039;
I?ve started grounding today with a walk in nature and 15 mins. bare foot on the grass
I must admit I was chasing the blissed our feelings etc, but they are just another attachment and distraction. Backing off from spiritual stuff will be hard but okay as I plenty of cleaning to do! Going to catch up on some comedies too.
It?s frustrating not being able meditate for longer or with mantras as it helps with monkey mind. I must stay in body though as It?s too easy for me to float off.
I?ll let you know how I get on and thanks again for the advise and support #128515;#128591;#127995;#128150;
