sorry for the excess posting..
ok so i'm having trouble finding an "ideal" to surrender to... i have a bunch of poeple that inspire me, mainly osho, ramana, and nisargadatta.. then there's ofcourse yogani
, and now robert adams from the itsnotreal web site... i love all these poeple, but as an ideal that i can really surrender to and pray too it seems that i can't make up my mind.... then i just think "why can't everything be my ideal?" just simply everything and anything.. total and complete acceptance of evertying.. how about that??