azurikai
USA
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Posted - Apr 24 2017 : 2:14:24 PM Show Profile Email Poster Visit azurikai's Homepage Edit Topic Reply with Quote View user's IP address Get a Link to this Message Delete Topic
For a while I have not wanted to touch myself as I felt that to achieve orgasm was a waste of my energy.
In fact, I have become quite puritanical in general, but feel as if I had kind of been repressing things and not letting energy there naturally flow.
I have recently read the first few chapters on Tantra and was later with a lover, who told me shortly into our session '**** me!'.
I said no, I do not wish to come, let us enjoy more the dance.
It was a wonderful experience and I look forward to practicing in such manner again.
To the topic...
A few days later and I am more and more noticing this newfound energy around sex, sacred respect for women, for sacred love.
I was outside on my balcony enjoying the sun and began to play with myself and felt no shame at doing so, just simply mindfully enjoyed the 'training'. (yes, in private)
I have since then felt the desire to do so more often, almost daily for a little bit at this point... it is quite nice to touch myself without the desire to orgasm, just simply to enjoy the intimacy with my own self.
Just wanted to say thank you for these teachings and share my experience
